One of my all-time favorite moments happened on a Sunday afternoon, on the soft lawn of a local park, gazing up at the golden sky as thousands of geese passed through for hours on end.
I remember just lying there in awe as flock after flock cut their way across, aligned with the southern trajectory of the snow-capped mountain peaks to the east.
How do they know where they’re going? I wondered.
At the time, I longed for so much trust to blindly follow an uncharted path, guided by nothing more than the depth and surety of my own inner knowing.
This is the kind of heart-led path I’ve been trying to follow for well over 10 years now, and it’s taken me places I never dreamed I’d go.
I’ve since authored 2 published works and my 3rd (and most vulnerable!) book is on its way to being released.
I’ve started two businesses that regularly require me to step out of my comfort zone, learn how to do things I never thought I could do, navigate conflict, and face my own limitations.
I’ve deepened and found alignment in relationships I feared were irreparable. I’ve released other relationships that no longer served.
All of these things have felt very brave, very heart-guided, and very unknown.
The old me could never have done them.
The old me was stuck in self-doubt and fear.
Stuck in conformity and playing a part and a desperate need to meet and exceed expectations.
You see, I’d experienced some major events in my life that had caused me to deeply doubt myself. To question my worth. To distrust my body and my own ability to see clearly.
I’d experienced a major betrayal — and with all the other challenges that come with having the rug pulled out from under you, the deepest one is that it often takes away your ability to trust yourself.
It took the right tools and framework, and a willingness to let myself be seen in all my messy humanity to reclaim what I saw so clearly displayed that day across the crisp autumn sky.
It took a deep, abiding trust in my Self.
Not in my personality or abilities. Not in my specialness or worthiness or some passionate story about what I deserved or anything like that.
It took a big-T Trust in the Highest and Deepest within me — the Something Higher that I could feel wanted to be expressed through me. The essence of Love that is all that I am and yet has nothing to do with me at all.
This Something is not unique to me. It’s in you, too…and every other being on the planet.
I look at my life today and feel a kinship with those beautiful birds who beckoned to me years ago, calling me to a more adventurous and fulfilling life.
Calling me to let go of my agenda and perceived notions of safety and success, to reclaim my heart, and simply follow, one mindful, surrendered step at a time.
It’s a calling for all truth-seekers, wounded warriors, maximizers, and dreamers who want to live deeper and richer.
I’m here to discover my own heart-guided journey, not to be a cog in a wheel on somebody else’s machine.
People who’ve experienced betrayals and rock-bottoms and who need the tools to find that Self-trust again—or maybe discover it for the first time ever.
Your absolute trust in your Deepest Self is the one thing that will carry you further than you ever thought you could go. There are reliable tools to find this trust within yourself and you’re worth the journey.
In love and fellowship,
Becky
P.S. I’ve been working on a special FREE training to offer some clear, digestible tools for those of you who want to better understanding you’re stuck in self-doubt and how to get more free. We’ll be going LIVE on Tuesday and Thursday, Nov 19 & 21. You can learn more and register here.